Surrender
Let's do some flashback stories that made me decide to be here, pursuing one year of study in the country that I used to hate lol. I still remember when I went for vacation to China in 2015, I always complain about the weather, the people, the culture, basically everything. And here I am, decided to study here voluntarily. After a few weeks, I think China is not that bad haha.
Most common questions that people ask me: "Why suddenly China?"
So here we go. Since I graduated from uni, I always want to explore to another country cause I like travelling A LOT. I have considered to pursue master in Sydney, got my acceptance letter, but at the end I didn't take it. The reason was the school fee was quite expensive and I didn't want to trouble my parents anymore although I'm sure they're willing to help me. I didn't want them to do it. Hence, I decided to continue working, save more money in order to invest something for my future plans later.
When you start working, it took longer times to decide on how you "spend" the money you earned for something else. I keep delaying what I've been wanting to do which is to explore and study until my brother said to me, "you keep saying that you always want to explore another country, but you keep staying at the same place for few years cause you're too scared to go out from your comfort zone. Hence, if you didn't trust yourself enough to move, one by one the doors will be closed." That words really hit me and since then, I start to think and ask God for the direction.
The first sign appeared in the beginning of the year when my boss gave me "Chineasy" book to study as a new year gift. It made me think why I didn't try to study Chinese instead? I started to ask around about the living cost, the school fee, and surprisingly it's not that expensive as you compared to study master. With all the possible expenses that may occur, I don't mind to use my savings and it's worth of one year investment for myself, so just go for it. To be honest, I still have a lot of doubts about my decision. As I keep praying about it, God works in His unbelievable way to comfort me that I will be ok.
Another significant part of this story was occured during my trip to Sydney. I met AS for dinner to catch up about life and we shared about His favours upon our life from time to time. His sharing really blessed me to keep being humble and listen to what God wants us to do. He shared about his current situation when he was in the midst of uncertainties but he chose to be like Abraham, to surrender and trust God's plans. He still doesn't know what God wants him to do but he's sure God will guide him step by step to follow the right path. The day after the meet up, I got a bible verse for him which is from Phillipians 1:6 "And I'm sure of this, that He who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ."
At that point of time, I never think that the verse will be applied to me too. Back in Singapore, I came to my usual cell group meeting, and one of my member shared a testimony about her mission trip to Hangzhou! She said it's clean, safe, and she doesn't mind to live there. I'm surprise cause no one knows I would go to Hangzhou. It kinda answer my doubts about living in Hangzhou. But as a human, I keep questioning myself wether I really made a right decision to study there. I knew He's already told me the answer, but still I have doubts.
As we know God is really an unexpected God haha. On the day I told all my cell group member about my plans, one of them get to pray for me. I still remember the exact words of what she prayed which was to have a heart like Abraham who always trust God's plans. He's not sure of what's next but he chose to trust God. Furthermore, another cell group member gave me a bible verse which was from Phillipians 1:6. Dejavu right?haha. I'm speechless and my heart knows it's God who wants to comfort me. It's almost the exact same things of what AS and I shared back in Sydney. It's a reminder for me to leave all my doubts and to just surrender. I got the verse for AS but somehow the verse was for me too. After getting a lot of confirmation from God, I'm more excited to know what will happen for me here.
Yeap, I'm currently in the midst of uncertainties but I feel peace in my heart. I know God wants me to be here although I don't know what the exact things that He wants me to do. I do believe He will show me the steps and walk together with me in this journey cause that's what faith is all about, right? (:
Most common questions that people ask me: "Why suddenly China?"
So here we go. Since I graduated from uni, I always want to explore to another country cause I like travelling A LOT. I have considered to pursue master in Sydney, got my acceptance letter, but at the end I didn't take it. The reason was the school fee was quite expensive and I didn't want to trouble my parents anymore although I'm sure they're willing to help me. I didn't want them to do it. Hence, I decided to continue working, save more money in order to invest something for my future plans later.
When you start working, it took longer times to decide on how you "spend" the money you earned for something else. I keep delaying what I've been wanting to do which is to explore and study until my brother said to me, "you keep saying that you always want to explore another country, but you keep staying at the same place for few years cause you're too scared to go out from your comfort zone. Hence, if you didn't trust yourself enough to move, one by one the doors will be closed." That words really hit me and since then, I start to think and ask God for the direction.
The first sign appeared in the beginning of the year when my boss gave me "Chineasy" book to study as a new year gift. It made me think why I didn't try to study Chinese instead? I started to ask around about the living cost, the school fee, and surprisingly it's not that expensive as you compared to study master. With all the possible expenses that may occur, I don't mind to use my savings and it's worth of one year investment for myself, so just go for it. To be honest, I still have a lot of doubts about my decision. As I keep praying about it, God works in His unbelievable way to comfort me that I will be ok.
Another significant part of this story was occured during my trip to Sydney. I met AS for dinner to catch up about life and we shared about His favours upon our life from time to time. His sharing really blessed me to keep being humble and listen to what God wants us to do. He shared about his current situation when he was in the midst of uncertainties but he chose to be like Abraham, to surrender and trust God's plans. He still doesn't know what God wants him to do but he's sure God will guide him step by step to follow the right path. The day after the meet up, I got a bible verse for him which is from Phillipians 1:6 "And I'm sure of this, that He who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ."
At that point of time, I never think that the verse will be applied to me too. Back in Singapore, I came to my usual cell group meeting, and one of my member shared a testimony about her mission trip to Hangzhou! She said it's clean, safe, and she doesn't mind to live there. I'm surprise cause no one knows I would go to Hangzhou. It kinda answer my doubts about living in Hangzhou. But as a human, I keep questioning myself wether I really made a right decision to study there. I knew He's already told me the answer, but still I have doubts.
As we know God is really an unexpected God haha. On the day I told all my cell group member about my plans, one of them get to pray for me. I still remember the exact words of what she prayed which was to have a heart like Abraham who always trust God's plans. He's not sure of what's next but he chose to trust God. Furthermore, another cell group member gave me a bible verse which was from Phillipians 1:6. Dejavu right?haha. I'm speechless and my heart knows it's God who wants to comfort me. It's almost the exact same things of what AS and I shared back in Sydney. It's a reminder for me to leave all my doubts and to just surrender. I got the verse for AS but somehow the verse was for me too. After getting a lot of confirmation from God, I'm more excited to know what will happen for me here.
Yeap, I'm currently in the midst of uncertainties but I feel peace in my heart. I know God wants me to be here although I don't know what the exact things that He wants me to do. I do believe He will show me the steps and walk together with me in this journey cause that's what faith is all about, right? (:
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