The Take-aways
So, my chapter in China has already finished. It has been a wonderful experience for me, meeting and getting to know a lot of new friends who definitely added more colours in my life. Getting to know myself even better. I went for solo travelling for the first time, and the other thing, I spend more time with God. I'm glad it makes my spiritual journey has grown as well. Finally have the time to write again so I will try to jot down what I have learnt for the past one year :)
1. Things that may look scary at first, it's actually not scary at all once you have been through it.
I still remember back then, I'm so indecisive to make a decision, to leave my comfort zone in Singapore and start a new journey in China without knowing anyone! By getting a fix income monthly, and choose to study Chinese going for a morning class from 8am - 1pm haha. To think about it, I'm surprised I don't mind with it. I really feel lonely at first cause I feel most of them is younger than me so it's very hard for me to open up or to share what's in my mind. But still, I'm sure God wants to give me a lesson in that circumstances.
I force myself to just even hangout with them, to do things that's really outside my comfort zone which is asking people to go out! hahaha. I always feel I don't have a capability to reach out to people cause I'm an introvert. I will always be the quiet one especially in new places. But from time to time, I feel I need to change as well if I want to be used by Him.
Long story short, the turning point is when I start asking them one by one of having an idea to have a cell group. I'm really glad I did it. It makes me realised what's my hidden talent hahaha. I feel so blessed when some of them starting to open up with me, asking my advices, asking my help, and yeah God makes me realised it's time for me to grow. Being one of the oldest, I need to be there for them, I need to be the big sister whom they can count on.
2. God sent good people who were there to help me.
Although I feel lonely at times, God still sent His people to accompany me. I made new friends whom I can be open up with. Not only that, I also learn from them. I meet new people with different background and the friendship that we shared, is really a genuine friendship. There are group of friends whom I can share about God, there are group of friends who always make me laugh with their silly jokes, there are group of friends who listen to my struggle. I just feel everything was made perfect for me in that limited circumstances. I know nowadays we may not as close as that time, but still the friendship that was built there, is real.
3. I know myself better.
Back in Singapore, I know myself as a timid person. Someone who likes to be in her comfort zone, someone who didn't like to go out and just want to stay at home. Someone who never share anything about her life unless being asked. Someone who's too lazy to do things that was not convenient. Someone who is too scared to make a decision, and never initiate anything.
But after living in China I see another side of myself that I didn't realised before. I realised I still have that competitive and perfectionist side of mine that has been disappear cause I was in my comfort zone for too long haha. I realised I care to others maybe more than I should. I went travelling alone, and I'm not scared at all. I like to talk to new people and listen to their struggle. Being the older sister, I feel the need to initiate first and be there for the others, I need to accommodate what they needs and take the responsibilities. God opens the new perspective about myself. It's the time for me to grow up both mentally and spiritually.
4. God is on time. He never too early and He never too late.
This will be my last point. As someone said, you can't connect the dots forward, but you connect the dot backward. I think the year when I decided to study in China is on the right time. I get to finish my biggest project in my previous company, I get to gain their trust so I can work part-time and having side incomes to pay for my school fee. The scary things, the part-time works was started in the right time as well. When I was not too busy with school, and not too busy with holiday haha.
Maybe if I went last year, or next year, there will not be an opportunity to get this part-time job as they may already find a new designer. I may not meet some of good people whom I consider as my good friend now haha. Yeappp, it's all back to the blessings from God. Even after I went for good to Indo, I can be trusted with a remote works! It's maybe everyone's dream but for me, it's a blessing from God that means I should do something more for Him as well.
Currently, I'm in the stage of waiting and thinking to plan for what's next. But it's not the same as last time. This time, I have a changed attitude and trusting in Him more on His plans for me. Wherever I choose to do next, wherever He sent me, wherever He wants me to do, I should not be worry cause He's beside me, as always!
1. Things that may look scary at first, it's actually not scary at all once you have been through it.
I still remember back then, I'm so indecisive to make a decision, to leave my comfort zone in Singapore and start a new journey in China without knowing anyone! By getting a fix income monthly, and choose to study Chinese going for a morning class from 8am - 1pm haha. To think about it, I'm surprised I don't mind with it. I really feel lonely at first cause I feel most of them is younger than me so it's very hard for me to open up or to share what's in my mind. But still, I'm sure God wants to give me a lesson in that circumstances.
I force myself to just even hangout with them, to do things that's really outside my comfort zone which is asking people to go out! hahaha. I always feel I don't have a capability to reach out to people cause I'm an introvert. I will always be the quiet one especially in new places. But from time to time, I feel I need to change as well if I want to be used by Him.
Long story short, the turning point is when I start asking them one by one of having an idea to have a cell group. I'm really glad I did it. It makes me realised what's my hidden talent hahaha. I feel so blessed when some of them starting to open up with me, asking my advices, asking my help, and yeah God makes me realised it's time for me to grow. Being one of the oldest, I need to be there for them, I need to be the big sister whom they can count on.
2. God sent good people who were there to help me.
Although I feel lonely at times, God still sent His people to accompany me. I made new friends whom I can be open up with. Not only that, I also learn from them. I meet new people with different background and the friendship that we shared, is really a genuine friendship. There are group of friends whom I can share about God, there are group of friends who always make me laugh with their silly jokes, there are group of friends who listen to my struggle. I just feel everything was made perfect for me in that limited circumstances. I know nowadays we may not as close as that time, but still the friendship that was built there, is real.
3. I know myself better.
Back in Singapore, I know myself as a timid person. Someone who likes to be in her comfort zone, someone who didn't like to go out and just want to stay at home. Someone who never share anything about her life unless being asked. Someone who's too lazy to do things that was not convenient. Someone who is too scared to make a decision, and never initiate anything.
But after living in China I see another side of myself that I didn't realised before. I realised I still have that competitive and perfectionist side of mine that has been disappear cause I was in my comfort zone for too long haha. I realised I care to others maybe more than I should. I went travelling alone, and I'm not scared at all. I like to talk to new people and listen to their struggle. Being the older sister, I feel the need to initiate first and be there for the others, I need to accommodate what they needs and take the responsibilities. God opens the new perspective about myself. It's the time for me to grow up both mentally and spiritually.
4. God is on time. He never too early and He never too late.
This will be my last point. As someone said, you can't connect the dots forward, but you connect the dot backward. I think the year when I decided to study in China is on the right time. I get to finish my biggest project in my previous company, I get to gain their trust so I can work part-time and having side incomes to pay for my school fee. The scary things, the part-time works was started in the right time as well. When I was not too busy with school, and not too busy with holiday haha.
Maybe if I went last year, or next year, there will not be an opportunity to get this part-time job as they may already find a new designer. I may not meet some of good people whom I consider as my good friend now haha. Yeappp, it's all back to the blessings from God. Even after I went for good to Indo, I can be trusted with a remote works! It's maybe everyone's dream but for me, it's a blessing from God that means I should do something more for Him as well.
Currently, I'm in the stage of waiting and thinking to plan for what's next. But it's not the same as last time. This time, I have a changed attitude and trusting in Him more on His plans for me. Wherever I choose to do next, wherever He sent me, wherever He wants me to do, I should not be worry cause He's beside me, as always!
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