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Me: Why has life become complicated now? Jesus: Stop analysing life. Just live it. Analysing is the one that makes life complicated. Me: Why are we then constantly unhappy? Jesus: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. Your are worried because you analysing it too much. Worrying becomes your habit and that's why you constantly unhappy. Me: But how we can not worry when there is so much uncertainty? Jesus: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional. Me: But there is so much pain because of uncertainty. Jesus: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional. Me: If suffering is optional. why do good people always suffer? Jesus: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experiences, their life become better not bitter. Me: You mean that kind of experience is useful? Jesus: Yes. In every term, experience is a hard teacher. It gives the tes...

So, my chapter in China has already finished. It has been a wonderful experience for me, meeting and getting to know a lot of new friends who definitely added more colours in my life. Getting to know myself even better. I went for solo travelling for the first time, and the other thing, I spend more time with God. I'm glad it makes my spiritual journey has grown as well. Finally have the time to write again so I will try to jot down what I have learnt for the past one year :) 1. Things that may look scary at first, it's actually not scary at all once you have been through it. I still remember back then, I'm so indecisive to make a decision, to leave my comfort zone in Singapore and start a new journey in China without knowing anyone! By getting a fix income monthly, and choose to study Chinese going for a morning class from 8am - 1pm haha. To think about it, I'm surprised I don't mind with it. I really feel lonely at first cause I feel most of them is younger tha...

One word to describe how's my journey here "unexpected". In terms of studying, making friends, or trying to earn money, I think God really taking care of me. I know I have been thinking a lot about so many things and I realised my human behaviour which tries to figure it out everything always be there. However at the same time, there are a lot of new things that He revealed to me too especially when I spent my time alone. After coming back from Australia, I gained all my courage to talk to some people here about starting a cell group. I never thought about this at all! Honestly, everyone in my previous cell group knew, I'm the passive one. I always be the listener, even in a discussion, I will just keep my mouth shut and try to absorb everything that I heard. But God works in a "weird" way right? Suddenly I have the courage to ask each person about my intention of having a cell group. Thankfully, the responses was good. So here I am, trying to be a cell gr...

(Part 1) This post is dedicated to you, the two letters of my name. It's been like 10 years since I know you from the start. I still remember seeing you in the corridor during the beginning of our high school. A lot of people had been talking about you, but I didn't know you at all and I didn't even have any interest to get to know you. That first "hello" from you at Facebook message, continued to Messenger, and exchanged phone number occured at one glance. It seems I have known you for some times, and we always laugh everytime we talk. We used to have the same display picture, teasing one another about who's the "ugliest" and have our own nickname everytime we call one another. But when we met face to face, there is no words came from our mouth. Just seeing each other with a smile while our heart was beating so fast. Too shy to say hi, but deep down we both know we're so happy even just to see each other from a distance. We used to have th...

Few days ago, I just got the news that my grandma has passed away. She was 97 year old and I guess she has already lived long enough and it's time for her to rest. No more pain from her sickness, and nothing to worry anymore cause she has left with peace. It made me think of how time flies. I don't have any grandparents now which kinda made me sad. There are a lot of childhood memories that I could remember with my grandmas and grandpas but I guess good things always come to an end. My grandpa from mom's side passed away before I was born, so I didn't have any memories with him while for my grandma, there are a lot of memories with her. I still remember every Chinese New Year, we would gather in her house. She would prepare the best meals that she cooked with my aunties, preparing a lot of fruits, making sure all our tummy was full. She loves to give us money randomly so my cousins and I can go to the market to buy some snacks for ourselves without telling our paren...

Let's do some flashback stories that made me decide to be here, pursuing one year of study in the country that I used to hate lol. I still remember when I went for vacation to China in 2015, I always complain about the weather, the people, the culture, basically everything. And here I am, decided to study here voluntarily. After a few weeks, I think China is not that bad haha. Most common questions that people ask me: "Why suddenly China?" So here we go. Since I graduated from uni, I always want to explore to another country cause I like travelling A LOT. I have considered to pursue master in Sydney, got my acceptance letter, but at the end I didn't take it. The reason was the school fee was quite expensive and I didn't want to trouble my parents anymore although I'm sure they're willing to help me. I didn't want them to do it. Hence, I decided to continue working, save more money in order to invest something for my future plans later. When you s...